Sunday, May 14, 2006

4 questions


Saturday was a hectic day for you Jan. Your energy was really drained at the end of the day. Nonetheless, you seemed happy. Friends came to help start packing. I'm sure there was a question in people's minds when we asked for help earlier in the week. Jan moving? Not again! You seem to have developed a reputation that even the nomadic Bedouins have trouble matching.

You were so glad to clear so much stuff from the basement. Linda Ruth and Brenda had a ball with you down there, classifying, bagging, boxing and laughing all along. I noticed the surprise in them when they saw all your artisitic abilities coming out of the boxes. You are such a precious and skilled person. No wonder why so many people loves you.

Then, when the dust settled, we saw a movie. Intriguing and charming, but above all mind expanding. We ended with more questions than answers; was he ill? who are really ill? is delusion a gift or weakness? who was learning from whom? Then I told you:
"Hi, my name is Don Juan de Marco. All my life I was looking for my Dona Ines, until I found you"
You instantly replied,
"You were not looking for Dona Ines, you were looking for Dona Janice...it's just that you didn't know how to spell my name..."

We laughed very hard when I kissed your hand and bent my knee.

We talked about the answer to the 4 most essential questions Don Juan mentioned: What is the essence of life? What is the essence of the spirit? What is worth dying for? What is worth living for? Don Juan said that the answer to these questions was the same: love.

I marvel at the speed and extent of the recovery I see in your body and in your brain. I wonder how do you get your strength to go on: simple answer: you love the gift of life and its giver so much that what is coming out through the seams of you current life is love.

Jan you are very much worth it... I am Don...

-Fede

2 comments:

Ret said...

When are you moving? I am pretty sure I have a week off at the end of June between the end of school and the start of my full-time volunteer work and I would like to come and visit you during this break time. Feel free to email me at mfcreations@sympatico.ca

Lyne from Lindsay said...

It's all about love, isn't it? What an amazing visit I had with you and Fede on Saturday, Jan. What I saw was a man who really knows how to be a husband, in good times and bad, in sickness and in health. A man whose love for you is only growing when some men would have lost courage long ago.
What I saw was a woman who loves live so much that she will do anything to hang onto it, and who loves her husband and trusts him to give her the words that she can't find - and he usually knows what they are. What I saw was a marriage that is mature, solid, grows stronger with adversity, when it's only a few months old. What I saw was God's love in action in ways I've never seen it before.

And I also saw Jan the way I always knew her. Understanding who she is, who her Lord is, what is important, and being able to communicate, no matter what! Abstract concepts, spiritual concepts, nothing is too big for you, Jan!! I'm so proud of you. Packing for you was difficult when I saw reminders of what was, but I was so encouraged by what is, and what is going to be. I love you more than I can say. And Fede, I am overwhelmed with gratitude for your loyalty and nurturing. God bless you both! You certainly blessed me.

Lyne